My journey to the world of Femdom
When I was 18 living in New York I stumbled upon a book store that sold vintage BDSM magazines and publications and I fell in love instantly. I still remember the first article I had every read, it was about a woman buying a hairbrush from a department store she was feeling all the different textures in the woods and how firm each hairbrush was, the sales assistant had an inkling she wasn’t just feeling the hair brushes firmness for her hair but in fact how it would feel on her bottom, the sales assistant knew all the information the woman wanted to know, so she invited her over to her home and tried the different hairbrushes on her. To this day this will be one of my fondest memories of finding these stories and reading them. They opened my eyes to a whole new world of possibilities.
That same week I was out partying and met a woman. She was stunning! She had long black hair beautiful skin and thispresence about her was one of a goddess, she was strong and sexy. We grew quite fond of each other and hung out a lot. She mentioned to me that she was a Dominatrix. I didn’t really know what that was at the time because I had never heard this word before so she explained it to me. I was in absolute awe when she told me all the different stories. The first storyshe told me was about a man who enjoyed being rolled up in a carpet and had French fries flicked on his face. He was very particular about where the french fries had come from. He was her favorite client.
Having heard what she had to say, it was something I was completely into. Certainly not the stories in vintage BDSM publications, it was real life! This can happen in real life! (I can feel it as I type). It was a feeling so strong that it was sheer bliss!
I knew from that moment onwards I wanted to be a Dominatrix.
Unfortunately (or fortunately) I already had a successful career, travelling, well paid and glamorous, well it was great to everyone but not myself, I wasn’t happy and I wasn’t fulfilled. I partied a lot and had fake people around me enabling the wrong behaviour. When I put an ad on Craigslist for a puppy, I found one immediately (I soon realized that I was extremely lucky to find the person I found) with the Craigslist killers and all. This puppy was mostly a good boy. He did get naughty but I put him back in his place. It was really pleasant to have a pet. He kept me company and made me feel warm in a cold empty superficial city that New York was for me at that time.
Shortly after I moved to London and I was introduced to the “kink scene” lots of parties lots of latex and lots of crazy activities! Once again completely shocked by what I saw but highly intrigued I got called to go back on the road again. I travelled around feeling lost with no real connections in the world. I was now super confused about what I had witnessedand confused about how much I enjoyed these things. I wasn’t much of a computer person back then. I despised technology so I wasn’t socially connected to like-minded people. I did however keep in contact with the New York dominatrix over emails and she sent me her stories. This is what kept me going at this point the small bit of light and aslither of hope that was in my life.
A parent had fallen ill and needed my help, I moved back to Sydney, met a man, settled down retired, got engaged, we got the big house, and the dog and lived my little vanilla life where I was safe and my crazy thoughts were kept away. But they ate me alive. I kept thinking to myself is this it? Is this my life now? A borning vanilla life? HELL NO!! I wasn’t born for this. I was born to be wild and free and strong and sexy and live my life to the fullest. I emailed a couple of Sydney Domina's and dungeons and did not hear a reply from anyone! I was so excited to start this new adventure and it just wasn’t happening for me. I had asked a couple of people for guidance and they said if you want to be a dominatrix you have to be a full service sex worker that provides femdomme experiences and to me that was not something that I wanted to provide. It felt wrong and my heart ached to hear that true traditional female Domination does not exist in these times! I really thought the world had turned to shit and my dream of becoming a Domina had ended! A couple of months later I was with my friend and we ran into a woman she knew - Mistress Jadis Ives. My eyes blew up when I saw her strength, beauty and the way she carried herself. My friend knew I was interested in being a Dominatrix so she introducedus and I asked Ms Jadis some questions about the industry and she told me everything I needed to hear to bring my faith back! She asked me if I would like to come in and voyer in one of her sessions I absolutely lit up with joy and so my next chapter begins…..
